I've never made the first move in my whole life - I'm too...

I've never made the first move in my whole life - I'm too scared. I couldn't kiss someone first. I'm extremely shy. I'm, like, so shy that actually... it's very painful what I'm going to say, but I don't think I've ever been with someone I really loved, because the people I really cared for, I didn't have, you know, the nerve to go after.