What was it like to wake up after having never gone to sleep? That was when you were born.
If you want to stay in a state of illusion, stay in it. But you can always wake up.
If you are ready to wake up, you are going to wake up. If you're not you are going to stay pretending that you are just a poor little me...
Waking up to who you are requires letting go of who you imagine yourself to be