The desire to be rewarded for one's creativity does not justify depriving the world in general of all or part of that creativity.
In terms of effect on the world, it's very good that I've lived. And so I guess, if I could go back in time and prevent my birth, I wouldn't do it. But I sure wish I hadn't had so much pain.
I'm the last survivor of a dead culture. And I don't really belong in the world anymore. And in some ways I feel I ought to be dead.
If you want to accomplish something in the world, idealism is not enough - you need to choose a method that works to achieve the goal.
People said I should accept the world. Bullshit! I don't accept the world.