We were married for almost 45 years. We fought all the time, it wasn't a great love or anything, it wasn't a great, all-consuming passion. She was just there. A lot of people were startled because we didn't seem devoted but we were.
I was taken completely by surprise. My wife died within a few minutes from an asthma attack. I was utterly destroyed. I was mad, crazy, I was howling.
I restrain myself a great deal. I don't say it, or I phrase it differently. But now and again I drop a lulu because I cannot resist it.