We watched 'Apocalypse Now' and 'Full Metal Jacket' before we went to war. It was pornography for us. They opened up this historical and psychological narrative. This is what men do when they go to war, we thought. It's a received image of war through film.
He was quoting me, to me, and he could name a scene and a page number. He convinced me that he knew the story and that he cared for the story and that he cared for me and the other men who had served with me,
If while alive you hurt or disappoint people you love, there's no use continuing such behavior when you're dead.