For 15 years I was a complete arsehole to a dozen people. I said I would try and make it right with those people, and anybody that gave me an audience, I was there.
I'm not trying to justify myself, or say I'm not sorry, or not contrite.
I will spend the rest of my life trying to earn back trust and apologize to people,
I didn't invent the culture, but I didn't try to stop the culture,
If you're trying to hide something, you wouldn't keep getting away with it for 10 years. Nobody is that clever.
We each cope differently with the specter of our deaths. Some people deny it. Some pray. Some numb themselves with tequila. I was tempted to do a little of each of those things. But I think we are supposed to try to face it straightforwardly, armed with nothing but courage.
I am flawed, deeply flawed. I didn't invent the [doping] culture but I didn't try to stop the culture and that's my mistake, and that's what I have to be sorry for.