I've made plenty of mistakes, I know I have, and during my time as a footballer things have changed so that the spotlight is now even more intense.
I get paranoid about people staring at me. Even now I don't deal with people looking at me. I can't do it sometimes. I can't go out. I don't know how to react when people stare.
There was a season and a half at City when I felt as though my football world was falling apart, when I felt for the first time that I didn't want to play, that maybe my career had come to an end and I should look for something else,